A Little Bit of Me

I have always been a thinker, curious and interested in the world and the people who inhabited it. When I was young, I was mainly concerned with the people I knew and the aspects of the world that I interacted with on a daily basis. Naturally, I did not really care about people in Greece when I was eight years old. I was curious about other places, certainly, but more in a vague and general sense. Even early on, though, I was a people-watcher and, on the rare occasions when we would go out to dinner when I was little, I would get caught up in all the people around us. There was so much to see and listen to. The world truly is an enchanting place when you're that young. Mostly, as a child, I kept my thoughts in my head as they were vague ideas that didn't lead to anything substantial. Still, I thought and, eventually, I began to write. I created fake newspapers about our neighborhoods or short stories about characters I had imaginary adventures with in my mind. As I grew older, my thoughts naturally became centered more around those issues that were widely considered to be more "important" than dolls or the neighbor's new pet. Certain things happened that made life more complicated; it gave me more to think about and figure out. I've always been a "fixer" - someone who wants to fix everyone's problems and make it all better. So I would write - scratching out ideas, solutions, and ponderings on paper, where I could read back over them and reflect. In many ways, I was just trying to figure out why things were the way they were. I began to collect journals full of this early writing. A lot of it wasn't really important. I rarely came to any conclusions. It was just my thoughts, as expressed on paper. Years passed, experiences grew, lessons increased, and my thoughts consisted of deeper things - arguably, things that actually mattered. Finally, close to two years ago, I started this blog in the hope that some of my thoughts would be helpful to someone else - that maybe somehow, something I said would impact someone else in a positive way; maybe to think about something new, maybe to think about something in a new way, or maybe simply to think. In any case, this blog was created for two main reasons: as an outlet in which to write my thoughts and as a way to share the ones I considered potentially worthwhile with others. I've posted over two hundred times since I began this blog. Some of my posts were quotes from others, some were songs lyrics, others were poetry, but mostly, these posts have been my thoughts. I honestly don't know whether this blog has had an impact on anyone else, but I'm still writing on the off-chance that someday it might. In the meantime, it still serves its purpose as an outlet through which I can investigate and express my thoughts. Whether that purpose is a tad self-indulgent, it is what it is. This is my blog and it has become one small part of me.