Silent Whispers

"We tell ourselves stories in order to live."

The White Album by Joan Didion

Fading Glimmers

I think we are well advised to keep on nodding terms with the people we used to be, whether we find them attractive company or not. Otherwise they turn up unannounced and surprise us, come hammering on the mind’s door at 4 a.m. of a bad night and demand to know who deserted them, who betrayed them, who is going to make amends. We forget all too soon the things we thought we could never forget.

On Keeping a Notebook in Slouching Towards Bethlehem by Joan Didion

Then one day you look in the rearview mirror of your existence and realize that you can see clear down the hill-less and curveless and bridgeless road of your life, straight to the maternity ward where you were born. And then you go to college. Where your bland past meekly follows, sluggishly scraping its feet on the floor.

I Was Told There’d Be Cake by Sloane Crosley

Waiting, Watching the Sky

Some say they feel it in their mouth, welling up, overwhelming. I feel it in the heart - a steady ache, a dull burning, a swelling emptiness, not of loss, but of longing, of dreams yearning to be fulfilled. I've said goodbye so many times. Why am I always on this side of the screen? Someday, I will soar as my heart is pierced with fierce anticipation - no more anxious jealousy. Someday, I too will leap from within the wings of home and fly away. Someday, I will join the masses and follow in the direction my hand has so often waved. Finally free. Free to pursue, to watch, to dream, and to wonder.

Lead Me

"Lead me 

With strong hands.

Stand up when I can't.

Don't leave me 

Hungry for love,

Chasing dreams.

What about us?

Show me

You're willing to fight,

That I'm still the love of your life.

I know we call this our home

But I still feel alone."

- Sanctus Real -

Infinite

"I don't know if I will have the time to write anymore letters because I might be too busy trying to participate. So if this does end up being the last letter I just want you to know that I was in a bad place before I started high school and you helped me. Even if you didn't know what I was talking about or know someone who has gone through it, you made me not feel alone. Because I know there are people who say all these things don't happen. And there are people who forget what it's like to be 16 when they turn 17. I know these will all be stories someday. And our pictures will become old photographs. We'll all become somebody's mom or dad. But right now these moments are not stories. This is happening, I am here and I am looking at her. And she is so beautiful. I can see it. This one moment when you know you're not a sad story. You are alive, and you stand up and see the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder. And you're listening to that song and that drive with the people you love most in this world. And in this moment I swear, we are infinite."

- The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Perception

"Why do I and everyone I love pick people who treat us like we're nothing?"

"We accept the love we think we deserve."

Wishes

Mother & Kitten

It's Time

So this is what you meant
When you said that you were spent
And now it's time to build from the bottom of the pit
Right to the top
Don't hold back
Packing my bags and giving the academy a rain check

I don't ever wanna let you down
I don't ever wanna leave this town
'Cause after all
This city never sleeps at night

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger, but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am

So this is where you fell
And I am left to sell
The path to heaven runs through miles of clouded hell
Right to the top
Don't look back
Turning the rags and giving the commodities a rain check

I don't ever wanna let you down
I don't ever wanna leave this town
'Cause after all
This city never sleeps at night

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger, but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am

This road never looked so lonely
This house doesn't burn down slowly
To ashes, to ashes

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger, but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am

- Imagine Dragons

A Life Lesson

"I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately. I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I've got to do or who I'm supposed to be. I don't want to be anything other than me."